Autumn in ZP
The only leaf I plucked, it faded out,
The vestige of the past is left instead,
The vortex gulf became an ether cloud
That pours with darkness as the sun has set
And I acquire the depth of distant skies
That fell into the chasm where color dies.
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The dusthole city souls, they all were dreaming
Of time they take a look to stellar sky,
I set the door ajar to find the gleaming
Of kodaked rapture caught in cyan eye.
I stand before this gate as evening burns
- I reached the land in which the loss returns.
The dawn of blue has lit a careless wonder
That peered among the rays of inner beam
When started up the state I'm living under
And overflew the day with radiant stream,
Conservatory glitter saved the rhymes
Of childish laugh you gave me for all times
And I recall the wild initiation
Inside the whirlpool of the gemmy night
That spat the sparks in crackling indignation
Which filled the city with electric light,
Transparent moon came lying on the branch
As all this swirling beauty you did change.
Beside the misty lake we sat awaiting
For the appearance chance, for turning back,
And when it came, forgotten, black and fading
We lied and smelled the grass in thunder sack,
We knew the way, we tried to outfluff
The abyss bottomless, oblivion chasm, the love.
We tried to catch the only wind to weather
The views of bolted doors and windows barred
And thousands of stairs we kept together
In vertical illusion of the art,
But when it rose it brought the autumn gray
That hid our nature shine in gloomy spray
The sparkling whirl dissolves in fairy power
Of hazy morning spreading overhead,
The fog in which we sailed did hide a flower
That all the grayish world was laughing at
And as the frost had fixed the wish to play
The crystalline delirium filled the day.
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Dead-drunk I sing beside the homely brow,
The land of rustling leaves, it's all destroyed
And strings are burning off my fingers now
And sadness spreads its wings in silent void,
It withers like the chance for me to be.
The scent of dying. Autumn in ZP.
Selena
I cleaned up the highway by throttling the engine aflame
Surpassing my memories trying to flee in a blast,
I'm scudding inside of my mind to the radiant frame,
A door into summer that stays a remain of the past,
A twinkling rectangle of light, a connection to happiness, where
Is ever the way leading out of the darkness I've done?
"There's no return as you enter the Land of Nowhere" -
Was carved on the outer side of the door on my run.
The clouds of indifferent creatures, they swallow my call,
These birds never sing mesmerized in the infinite flow,
Ensign of this place is the snow in summer to fall
And stars that are fading at night when the wind stops to blow.
The spill of the lassitude emptied the wish to retrieve
The vision of past buried down in the littoral foam,
Acquire what I cry as I've seen you could stand it alive
When felt for my soul in the haze of inferno to roam.
My time is entwined with the horror that came from above,
And never awakes from the clasp of a suicide dream,
Where beauty has vanished away from the place of my love
And time once has stopped in the matter of sacrament beam,
The sun never shines in a thicket of loss where my cries
Apply to the state that is grown of illusion and damn,
I reached it again but what do I need in the sky
If nothing else matters and no-one can get where I am?
I'm sitting in silence while nothingness sinks in a deep
Of dying subconsciousness lost in the sea of despair
Afraid of the our memory locked by the feelings unfair,
The metal of rain comes to pour all day on the shore
And splashes of scale start to jump on the layer of sense
That's melting to fluid in fitful attempt to restore
The drops of my life boiling off in a desperate dance.
The flashes transparent, they squirt in the riddle of rhymes:
With sorrow I try to re-enter the game but in vain,
The self-demonstration is cracked for the end of all times
And sources of matter are never attracted again,
The afterlife bells chime the day I've to kiss'em good-bye
Demanding the quant from my colorful energy tray,
Down in the depth of the gray they invite me to die,
They long for my time but there's nothing that's left of today.
Iris
We sat together till the gloaming fell,
The twilight gaieties of evening joy
Made mask of nothing as the choral bell
Rang pulses of her temper coy.
I reached my hand out to her sparkling heart
And touched the childhood sunshine in its prime
And rocks iridescent - the hidden part
Of memories that filled my time,
I took her out of the worldwide hive
To show the frozen stars and molten sun,
She caught me in the hairnet silk to rive
The link to where the hell seemed done,
That time we left the shore where shadows twirled
In the pre-sunset calmness of the past,
And far beyond our fate we have been hurled
To see the beam for souls blessed.
We played the careless game behind the veil -
The waterfall of dew-drops fenced my bliss,
Beside the soaring of the clouds frail
The fluid light has swirled our ease,
Inside its gleaming cascades we did swap
The varicoloured necklaces of splash,
We walked along the sacred downward slope
To reach the edge of rapture flash.
And through the calm of the forbidden room
With windows opened up in summer night
She carried me away from usual doom,
Down to the Aeon of the Quiet,
Unfathomable waters endless tide
Has led us to the depth of tranquil hours,
Beyond the bound of oblivion, deep inside
The inter-confidence of ours.
With the wind
Trails of flights and of sunny caress disappear in the clouds
While I'm standing onhigh looking down from the edge of the steep
To the road for the journey that fixes my finishing sweep
By the nuclear blast and the weep of celestial crowds,
Greyish mist is entwining the darkness and wreathes in shadows
For i'm gone through the fake and the sparkling illusion of light,
And again I am one with the wind but the breathes of night
Whirl the ash I am roaming knee-deep in the colorless meadows.
You kept holding the line in the world with no traces of answer
With no love, and no death, and no murmur of happiness stream
Which was lost in the darkness to leave the indefinite dream
That I share with infinity watching the sour of the dancer
Who took off from the peaks that surrounded the craddle of sadness
And emitted transparent reflections in heavenly tears,
They are dripping in twilight and sink in the omen of fears
Of the consciousness fading away to the permanent madness.
Unbelief that I'm trying to trust is entwining together
With the air that is praying the rhyme to the vanishing day
To dissolve in the withering wasteland in final decay
For it's trapped overnight by the spread of the flickering heather.
And the spectral imprint of your laugh, when we parted forever,
Left the tone turning quieter with age, as the life passes by,
I recall morning drizzle that lies down the roof of our sky
While its traces are swept by the avalanche crumbling to Never,
Moonlight gleam disappears in the widening torrent of snow
Falling down through the mist of the canyon and juggling with light,
Sends a final good-bye to us left at the summit of night
That begins to peal off to the bottomless abyss below.
I foretaste the embrace of the bitter insanity knowledge
As I leave to the sky with its colors upset in the wrath,
But it's turning to black on the way to the temple of death
Where I wander astray with the wind swirling over the foliage.
(translation of "At the edge" which was written together with Dana Mad)
